Tuesday, May 30, 2006

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It is ironic, oxymoron, I can't explain it. It's very hard to understand even the genius can't explain this thing. Everyone can be a victim of what is so called love.....
At first you can enjoy the happiness it brings but you will cry in the end. It's true that every beginning has it's end and every happiness has it's sorrow.
Is it true that time will heal the wound or only new love can heal the wound?
Why can't I forget him? How can I move on if he's always there?

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Life Is......

Another poem from my dear friend Adam Swift. He has the talent in writing good poems.Thank You Adam! God Bless!

In everyone’s life you have joy; you have pain.
Whether you are rich or you are poor it's always the same.
The good and the bad, the sour and the sweet
The thrill of victory ,and agony of defeat
The passion of love, the pain of loss
Reminds me of Jesus and his death on the cross.
The blessing of salvation came through His death.
On our way to heaven let’s cherish each breath.
Even through the cold, dark, hard, lonely nights
The day we meet Jesus is still within sight.
So, let’s rejoice in this day, for it's one the Lord made.
Let’s be thankful for all the blessings He gave.
We can praise Him when it's raining and through the Storm
Because He gave us the victory and so much more.
Encouragement to all be like an eagle soaring.
If you find yourself struggling through the night, there’s
Joy in the morning.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Roses Come in Spring

This poem was written by my good friend named Adam Swift.Hey, Adam, thank you very much for sharing this poem with me. God Bless You!

Roses Come in Spring
by: Adam Swift

Winter is a harsh season. The snow and the ice come with no sympathy for those they affect. The cold air is ferocious as it whips in the face of all who dare to defy it. The seasons of life eventually start to change, and Spring comes with rain to wash the memories of the hard times away. It is still cold at times, especially at night, but does come out to bring good times. Once in awhile mean, old Winter will come back on the scene. It gets cold and one doesn't see the light. Then the sun comes out, bring
feelings of joy and peace. Eventually, it is summer. Memories of the painful times of Winter are slowly erased. New memories, good memories start to develop......These are the times when the roses grow. And since these beautiful flowers have gained experience they now are wise and grow thorns to protect themselves. The flowers are just as beautiful with the thorns as without, but with the thorns they can protect themselves.....The seasons of life......There's so much we can learn from God's creation.

To understand this, you have to understand the seasons here. Winters can be long and hard, just like the times of your life with pain. Eventually, Spring comes and things get brighter.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Seeing The Light

Been in tough time of my life, seems that all my plans are hard to achieve; I’m on the wrong path. Everything is a mess. I’ve been in a trap, a place where I can’t get out ……I can’t get out or I don’t wanna get out? Am I staying in this situation because I choose to stay? I remember the saying, “Life is a matter of choice”. What’s happening in our lives is just the result of our actions. We deserve what we get. Okay, let me get straight to the point, I can’t focus because there’s something bothering me; I’ve said that I already moved on. But why am I still lonely? Why does my heart ache? I admit that it’s hard to forget the man that I love so much…places we’ve been to, our favorite songs, sweet memories, all these things makes me sick….How can I forget the man that I love. I can’t get mad at him. There are times that all I want to think is his bad attitude I ‘m doing these things for me to get angry with him but I can’t. I always have a forgiving heart for him. He’s always welcome to come back. One Sunday afternoon, I got a text message from him….”Hi, how are you? Can we go out? I’m lonely, I want someone to talk to and listen to me.” I immediately replied, “Okay, I’m just here.” We went to the beach, we just sat there and watch the sunset. Nothing’s changed, we’re both single. And then he asked me if we can still go out together, I agree with him…I’m always there for him when he needed me but when I need him, he’s not there, it’s unfair….But still I tried to understand him…but one night, I asked him if he can accompany me but he has many excuses….okay, I have to wake up….I want to close my door and locked it forever. I want to get mad…I want to nurture the madness that’s growing in my heart. I totally want to change; I have this defiant feeling inside me. Tomorrow is Sunday, I have this feeling that I don’t wanna go to church anymore because I felt that all the things I want are far from my reach….but there’s a voice inside me saying that you have to attend the church service. Okay, I went to the church but stayed at the backseat but one of the members said that there are still vacant seat in front…So, my sister and me went in the front seat. The gospel is 1 Samuel; it is about Hannah, she kept on praying to God to have a son. She poured out her soul to the Lord and the Lord granted her prayer, she gave birth and named her son Samuel, saying “Because I asked the Lord for him”. Our Pastor said that we must continue praying, and be specific with the things we pray for. “Pray without seizing”. Our prayers will be granted in His time not ours. And there are many people who get impatient and do what they want in their time and that makes them feel empty. Exactly, that’s what I’m doing, Bulls eye! I am getting impatient… and doing things on my own. Now I have to pray for the Lord’s forgiveness and ask Him to guide me and work in my life again. Now, I know that the Lord love me so much He never let me astray. He always calls me back and directs me whenever I lost my way. Oh I’m so blessed for seeing the Light. I remember what my Pastor said, sometimes our eyes are full of tears and our hearts are full of grief and sadness all we need to do is cry out to the Lord and wash the tears that makes our sight hazy. And now, I have a happy heart and know that I can ask “Samuel” in my life. It maybe a career, husband, son or daughter, house, car... But all the things we asked for should glorify the Lord.

Glory be to God!

Sunday, December 11, 2005

I Love You Jesus No Matter What......

Yesterday's gospel really touched my life. The Lord spoke to my heart and my soul. For the past few weeks I felt that my life is moving in slow motion. Nothing happens with my plans. But my faith was revived because of the Lord's promise. He will never left us alone. He has good plans for our lives.We must trust Him and love the Lord no matter what.....Whoever trust in Jesus Christ will be save and thy family.

Thank you Jesus for not giving up on me and I will love you no matter what........

By the way, the title of this post came from the grandson of our Pastor. He serves as my inspiration of having a great faith in God. He is a child and always ended his prayer with the phrase "I love you Jesus Christ no matter what." Eventhough he's a child he already experienced a deep pain when he lose his younger sister whom he love so much because of cancer and leaving his parents bankcrupt. But he didn't lose his faith to the Lord. Sometimes, we need to learn the lessons in life through the children.

One more thing please read the article below it's worth reading....

TO MEET SUCH A MAN

I sat with two friends, in the picture window of a quaint restaurant just
off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company were both
especially good that day.
As we talked, my attention was drawn outside, across the street. There,
walking into town, was a man who appeared to be carrying all his worldly
goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that read, "I will
work for food." My heart sank.
I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others around
us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a mixture of sadness
and disbelief.
We continued with our meal, but his image stayed in my mind. We finished
our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do and quickly set out to
accomplish them. I glanced toward the town square, looking somewhat
halfheartedly for the strange visitor. I was fearful, knowing that seeing
him again would call some response. I drove through town and saw nothing of
him. I made some purchases at a store and got back in my car.
Deep within me, the Spirit of God kept speaking to me: "Don't go back to
the office until you've at least driven once more around the square."
Then with some hesitancy, I headed back into town. As I turned the square's
third corner, I saw him. He was standing on the steps of the store front
church, going through his sack
I stopped and looked feeling both compelled to speak to him yet wanting
to drive on. The empty parking space on the corner seemed to be a sign from
God: an invitation to park. I pulled in, got out and approached the town's newest visitor.
"Looking for the pastor?" I asked.
"Not really," he replied, "just resting."
"Have you eaten today?"
"Oh, I ate something early this morning."
"Would you like to have lunch with me?"
"Do you have some work I could do for you?"
"No work," I replied. "I commute here to work from the city, but I would
like to take you to lunch."
"Sure," he replied with a smile.
As he began to gather his things, I asked some surface questions. Where you headed?"
"St. Louis."
"Where you from?"
"Oh, all over; mostly Florida."
"How long you been walking?"
"Fourteen years," came the reply.
I knew I had met someone unusual. We sat across from each other in the same
restaurant I had left earlier. His face was weathered slightly beyond his 38
years. His eyes were dark yet clear, and he spoke with an eloquence and
articulation that was startling. He removed his jacket to reveal a bright
red T-shirt that said, "Jesus is The Never Ending Story."
Then Daniel's story began to unfold. He had seen rough times early in life.
He'd made some wrong choices and reaped the consequences. Fourteen years
earlier, while backpacking across the country, he had stopped on the beach
in Daytona. He tried to hire on with some men who were putting up a large
tent and some equipment. A concert, he thought.
He was hired, but the tent would not house a concert but revival services,
and in those services he saw life more clearly. He gave his life over to God.
"Nothing's been the same since," he said, "I felt the Lord telling me to
keep walking, and so I did, some 14 years now."
"Ever think of stopping?" I asked.
"Oh, once in a while, when it seems to get the best of me, but God has given
me this calling. I give out Bibles. That's what's in my sack. I work to buy
food and Bibles, and I give them out when His Spirit leads."
I sat amazed. My homeless friend was not homeless. He was on a mission and
lived this way by choice. The question burned inside for a moment and then I
asked: "What's it like?"
"What?"
"To walk into a town carrying all your things on your back and to show your sign?"
"Oh, it was humiliating at first. People would stare and make comments.
Once someone tossed a piece of half-eaten bread and made a gesture that
certainly didn't make me feel welcome. But then it became humbling to realize that
God was using me to touch lives and change people's concepts of other folks like me."
My concept was changing, too. We finished our dessert and gathered his
things. Just outside the door, he paused. He turned to me and said, "Come
Ye blessed of my Father and inherit the kingdom I've prepared for you. For
when I was hungry you gave me food, when I was thirsty you gave me drink, a
stranger, and you took me in."
I felt as if we were on holy ground. "Could you use another Bible?" I asked.
He said he preferred a certain translation. It traveled well and was not too
heavy. It was also his personal favorite. "I've read through it 14 times," he said.
"I'm not sure we've got one of those, but let's stop by our church and see"
I was able to find my new friend a Bible that would do well, and he seemed
very grateful.
"Where are you headed from here?" I asked.
"Well, I found this little map on the back of this amusement park coupon."
"Are you hoping to hire on there for awhile?"
"No, I just figure I should go there. I figure someone under that star right
there needs a Bible, so that's where I'm going next."
He smiled, and the warmth of his spirit radiated the sincerity of his
mission. I drove him back to the town-square where we'd met two hours
earlier, and as we drove, it started raining. We parked and unloaded his things.
"Would you sign my autograph book?" he asked. "I like to keep messages from
folks I meet."
I wrote in his little book that his commitment to his calling had touched my
life. I encouraged him to stay strong. And I left him with a verse of
scripture from Jeremiah, "I know the plans I have for you, declared the
Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you; Plans to give you a future
and a hope."
"Thanks, man," he said. "I know we just met and we're really just strangers,
but I love you."
"I know," I said, "I love you, too." "The Lord is good!"
"Yes, He is. How long has it been since someone hugged you?" I asked.
"A long time," he replied
And so on the busy street corner in the drizzling rain, my new friend and I
embraced, and I felt deep inside that I had been changed. He put his things
on his back, smiled his winning smile and said, "See you in the New Jerusalem."
"I'll be there!" was my reply.
He began his journey again. He headed away with his sign dangling from his
bedroll and pack of Bibles. He stopped, turned and said, "When you see
something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?"
"You bet," I shouted back, "God bless."
"God bless." And that was the last I saw of him.
Late that evening as I left my office, the wind blew strong. The cold front
had settled hard upon the town. I bundled up and hurried to my car. As I
sat back and reached for the emergency brake, I saw them... a pair of well-worn
brown work gloves neatly laid over the length of the handle. I picked them
up and thought of my friend and wondered if his hands would stay warm that
night without them.
Then I remembered his words: "If you see something that makes you think of
me, will you pray for me?"
Today his gloves lie on my desk in my office. They help me to see the world
and its people in a new way, and they help me remember those two hours with
my unique friend and to pray for his ministry. "See you in the New Jerusalem," he said. Yes, Daniel, I know I will...
If this story touched you, forward it to a friend!
"I shall pass this way but once. Therefore, any good that I can do or any
kindness that I can show, let me do it now, for I shall not pass this way again."
My instructions were to send this to four people that I wanted God to bless
and I picked you. Please pass this on to people you want to be blessed.
This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached. Please do not break
this pattern. Prayer is one of the best gifts we receive. There is no cost
but a lot of rewards. Let's continue to pray for one another. God bless and
have a nice day!
"Father, I ask you to bless the person reading this right now. Show them a
new revelation of your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask you to minister to
their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them your peace
a and mercy. Where there is self-doubt, release a renewed confidence through
your grace, In Jesus' precious Name Amen."

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Coming back to Life.....

They say that when you fall inlove you will be blind with all the things happening in your surroundings. As if you're living with your own world. You don't care with what people will say, what is important is that you are happy together with the one you love. But you can't live with your own little world, you need to wake up and come back to life. We have to live in reality....
Well, for quite sometime, I became happy with the man I thought will be with me forever but it's over, we decided to stay as friends, yes......just friends.....We tried to be committed but it didn't worked out. We are friends for quite long, we went out, call and text each other almost everyday, and came to a point that we became more than friends.Yes, there we're happy times, but things changed, we're in a relationship, we're not just friends.......broken promises, unfulfilled expectations, misunderstanding....So we decided to break up and keep each other as FRIENDS. But again we must realize that things are not the same again...we're just friends, we can't act like lovers 'coz we're not....We're both confused with our relationship....maybe because of fear and not being ready to be in a deeper relationship, afraid to hurt each other....I don't know. We both love each other but maybe it's not yet the right time for us.....Sometimes I just thought that maybe it's better if we didn't decided to be in a relationship, maybe it's better if we just stayed as good friends. Although we parted as friends, feelings were hurt and we can't turn back the time. What is left is happy memories of being together and also lessons learned....I'm sad with what happened to us but I believe that if you love someone let him go, if he returns he's yours .....Now, it's time to move on and come back to reality and come back to life.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Exhausted......

Hey, being in a relationship is fun, being inlove and be loved is one of the most amazing feeling anyone can experience. But life is not a fairy tale, you will experience loneliness and you will get hurt. There are times that I feel exhausted of loving..............................